*I am a Hindu now: A former Muslim girl's life story*
June 27, 2010
I was born into a very staunch Muslim family in the US. Learning to read the
Quran the moment I could read. I was under the misconception that if I did
not do as Allah told me to do, I would be punished severely. I was also told
that if I didn't wear modest clothes I was being immoral.
Right from a little girl I wore the head scarf. My friends would ask me why,
and I would tell them "because God said so'.
Around the age of 14, I realized how much of life I was missing out on. How
my father commanded that I do my prayers 5 times a day and never play any
sports because they would only lead me to the devil. One night I was talking
to my parents about college and my father said that I would never go to
college because he had chosen a boy for me and I was about to get married to
him as soon as I turned 18. I was shocked..
My mother ran out of the room crying. I began to plead with my father to let
me go to college. But he said no. When I asked him why, he told me that
Muslim women are not supposed to be educated or go to work. They are
supposed to be good wives, who never disagree with their husbands and be
good honorable women. I couldn't believe my ears. This man was still living
in the dark-ages.
The next day after school I went to the mosque to talk with our Maulvi
Sahab. When I told him about my father's irrational behavior-he agreed with
him. He told me that if all the Muslim men in our community thought like
your father, we would be in a really good place right now.
I was stuck and didn't know what to do. I kept thinking about it till late
that night. At around 2am my mom came to check up on me and found me crying.
That night I came to know what a sick religion Islam was. She told me that
she had been a well educated (Doctor) Hindu woman who had fallen in love
with my father in India. During their courtship my father had told her that
he was very broad-minded and did not want her to convert when they got
married. Against my grand-parent's wishes she married him and did the Nikaah
just so her mother-in-law would like her.
That's where her nightmare began. Her In-laws would not let her go out of
the house. No one could come and visit her. She was confined in a home where
everyone would spit on her for being a 'Kafir'. They made her read the Quran
and do Namaz. If she didn't they would beat her. My father would come home
and force himself on her. When she would ask him not to, he would tell her
that it was written in the Quran, and she was nothing more than a slave to
him. After about a year of their marriage, they left for the US. My mom was
already pregnant with me.
When I was born he was not too happy with my Mom. He said that if he had
married someone of his own faith he would have had a boy for sure. Giving
him a girl was the way Allah was punishing him for marrying a Hindu.
When I heard all this I began to hate my father and Islam. I promised to get
my mom out of this situation and also never ever end up like her. When I
turned 18, along with the help of a lawyer, I managed to get my mom and dad
divorced. My mom actually went back to school and has a flourishing practice
As for me, you might say that I reverted. I am a practicing and loving Hindu
now. I have changed my name (new name is not given with the fear of
punishment of death for apostasy). I live a life full of love and adoration
for a God who does not preach hate, who encourages me to think and gain
knowledge, who shows me the way without fear and who loves everyone no
matter who they are. I got married to a Hindu guy and having one beautiful
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